Too much excitement going on, ask me about it when you want to go get a coffee or something :)

Your Score: Fun Loving Soul

You scored 18 Extroversion, 4 Sensitivity, and 14 Openness!

You are an open and social person. When you are left alone you tend to get bored and restless, and too much time without social contact makes you fade away. A good night surrounded by friends and laughter soon perks you back up.

You are trusting and truthful, and you aren't good at hiding your emotions from friends or strangers alike. People need to take you as you are - and often they do. You are confident but not overconfident, sensitive but not touchy. You aren't afraid to give your opinion, or to let someone know when they have offended you, but you don't constantly fly off the handle. You simply want to make your thoughts and feelings known, and you are just as open to hearing others' points of view. Sometimes your friends feel slighted by you, because they aren't as open about their feelings as you are, and so you don't always notice when they are feeling hurt or down.

Your daemon's form would represent your social and emotionally honest nature, as well as your balanced sense of self. He or she would constantly be throwing him or herself into the moment - enjoying the feel of the afternoon wind, the throbbing beat of music in the club, or helping you argue your point.

Suggested forms: Meerkat, Labrador Retriever, Sea Lion, Lemur

So Diarmaid can basically read me like a book.

Which is weird, because no one's ever been able to do that. It kind of feels like I can't hide anything, which is scary...

Basically, Diarmaid, Emily and I went to go see There Will Be Blood (for $4 :P) after my first rehearsal (which I will talk about briefly, but I'm sure you can already tell what Im going to say). The first hour of the movie, I feel like shit, my stomach is killing me, I feel nauseous. Diarmaid's like, "Are you okay?", and I respond, "Yeah, no, I'm good, I just feel a little sick." He periodically asks me if I'm okay throughout the whole movie. Finally, the movie ends and he pulls me aside. And he basically says everything I thought he wouldn't say.

He tells me that I shouldn't let my nerves for the show get the best of me, and that I shouldn't make myself sick over a role. He said I should treat it like a job, versus being in my first college mainstage play, and that they wouldn't have picked me if they thought I couldn't do it.

I was so shocked. Like. How the fuck did he know I was making myself sick?? I didn't even tell him that I used to do that all the time in the past. I could've easily just...I don't know, had my period or something, or eaten something weird. But he said it like HE KNEW that was it.

It was weird, but strangely comfortable...and for some reason I felt like bawling in the middle of the theatre lobby.

I can't seem to take my mind off the fact that I might have just had a kick ass audition, but in the long haul, I'd actually be pretty shitty for Persephone.
I'm pretty sure I'm going to perform, and someone's going to be like, "Why'd they give that role to HER?"
During the readthrough, all I could concentrate on was how good everyone else was. Hades was fanfuckingtastic. The other girl in the cast is hilarious. And the worst part...is they all know each other. Very well. So who's the odd one out? Yup.

I hate that feeling.

I couldn't even say goodbye because they were all in a group laughing and talking, like they'd even hear me say goodbye.

Okay. I have class. But I'll probabaly end up adding shit latter...SIGH.

:D

I got Persephone in "Winter Fruit".

I won't get into detials about how that worked out after second callbacks for Blue Elephant, but basically I'm super super flattered and I'm not believing any of this until my first rehearsal.


!!!!!!!!!!!!

What. The. Fuuuuuuuck.

Um. Okay. Second callbacks for the New Plays Festival are tonight...and I got one for the lead of one of the plays, as did one other girl, who is a senior in the BFA program going to Yale Drama School next year...yeaaaaaaaah.

Other crazy ass news??!!

Apparently I'm their first choice for that lead in Blue Elephant........but I'm also the first choice of another play's lead, Winter Fruit...

Not that Diarmaid told me or anything.

But. Seriously, WTF?!?!?!

Like. I honestly don't believe it. I don't know if you guys can picture this at all...but there were ALL of BFA students and upperclassmen and theater majors...and they fucking want me to play two of the leads.

Basically, typing this is weird, because it hasn't sunk in.

And I'm the only freshmen girl who got a second callback.

Hi, this is fucking surreal.

By the way, the making out thing was not as bad as I thought it would be. The first guy was a pussy and didn't want to make out with me (byyyyye self esteem), the second one was gay (Diarmaid was happy), and the third guy had been someone I had been talking to all night, so it wasn't awkward and he was a SUPER nice guy who I did a callback scene for Winter Fruit with.

Hooray!

Something tells me more making out will happen tonight.

But. Basically, assuming there aren't any other freshmen in Winter Fruit (they didn't actually callback anyone)...I might be the only freshmen in New Plays Festival.

The best part is. Diarmaid didn't have any say in any of this. He was there, but he didn't say "Hey, cast my girlfriend", and he made sure not to mention the fact that I was his girlfriend anytime during auditions. So. I really got this far on my own.

I hope this doesn't sound narcissistic...you guys just don't know how much SHS was really a downer debbie for me, theater-wise, sometimes. It's nice to be in a completely different environment and have people be like, "She's good, let's cast her as a lead."

xx Ciao, Bellas :)

Ok. I talked to Karen about everything, and I definitely feel a lot better. Thank you everyone for the advice, and I'm definitely going through a breath-and-relax phase right now. I definitely have things to talk about with him, and I'll be doing that fairly soon. We're both very laid back and non-confrontational. This should be interesting. :P

Other than that! Auditions for the silent movie are Thursday and Friday, and I'm hoping I'll be involved with that.

I have an essay on shoes due for Women Studies. And I haven't started. Ooooops. Guys are so distracting.

And Livejournal is too. Fuck. Okay. Here I go...

Helloooo

So. This will be my first and last non-protected entry...which means you'll have to add me as a friend to see the rest :)

Much love. xoxo